Use The Word You Mean

Shy

Embarrassed

Are they synonyms?

I feel that it is arguable.

Shy means easily frightened away

Whereas

Embarrassed can mean ashamed of

Choose the word you mean

Wrong words hurt

Think carefully

Or else

Real Friends

A real friend knows they can push your limits
A friend doesn't know what your limits are
A real friend knows how to handle your situations
A friend doesn't even know your situations
A real friend can finish your sentences
A friend doesn't under your sentences
A real friend knows that no matter what you say, you will always be there
A friend can't understand this

Feelings. Change.

Beware of change

It sneaks up on you, laughing in your face

If it changes for the bad, make the best choice

It will be hard, it will be strange

But learn from it. I did.

It only came up when I realized something was missing

Along time ago I never knew how you had changed me

But today I can say whole-heartedly that you changed me into LIANNA

Had I never met you I would not be as self-confident as I am now

When we laughed, hearing your laugh was always the best part of my day

And now, it’s my enemy.

I wish I could say that I hate you, but change happened all too fast

So I never got to say, those words that I really felt

I still feel

But change happened,

It happened to you, it happened to me, and

US

Be The Trust

Be true

Never lie

The worst lie, is when you say you will always be here

But then you leave every time

Don’t be the one that tells me you will forever be by my side,

Be the one that shows me you will forever be beside me

Understand the that when I tell you

You become my treasure, because those words can define a person,
ME

The Never Ending Staircase

Life is like a never ending staircase
Our friends and family act as the handrails
Various sections of the stairs may not have them
Embrace your family and friends, they are worth holding onto.

STOP.

STOP!

I am sick

Worse then ill

The disease has spread

To where it will hurt the most

Arms are weak, feeling weak-kneed

I wish I could change fate, it would hurt less

Truth is the world has different plans

No hurt will ever hurt as much

I feel always pained here

Deep down it lives

I am sick

STOP!

That feeling called 'LOVE'

Once in a lifetime, you find a new feeling

You call it love, it can find its way to you

But the worst part is, when you find it’s not there

Sorrow then takes its place, but has you thinking about the past

When in front of you in the present, is an opportunity

Two choices       stay in the happy memories of your past

                                                Or

                        Find new exciting opportunities in the present

Empty Promises

Empty Promises

all the empty promises 

will continue to exist if you never fill them

promises promises   broken, and kept

I wont ask you to promise me anything 

but i ask you to remember your empty promise

This One Is For You

You say you were sad

You say you were insecure

Back then you didn’t look so sad or insecure

You would tell me fun things

Don’t you know who you are?

You are the one who wanted to be my friend,

You are the one who wanted to be forever and always,

You wanted to be with me

And now

You sit, and watch someone who plays you

You watch them suffer everything you feel inside

Because you don’t have the nerve to stand up and play yourself

NO

You need to have someone be you

And that is just not right...

I'm Sorry

I’m sorry

Not for my actions

I wish I could be sorry for them

But sorry for the thoughts that I thought were true

For wasting my thoughts on something that continues to nothing

It’s my fault, I allowed it to get to me when it was just a typical teenage move

That night, when you said that, I try to erase my memories of it

But no Advil can clear my head of your words, or you

I want to know how you see me

I thought I knew you

I’m sorry

Colors Of Emotion

(PLEASE COMMENT WHAT YOU THINK THE COLOR IS)

You make me feel free, like a cloud in the sky
You make me feel curious, like when you look into a doll's eyes
You make me feel safe, like a baby blanket cuddled around me
You make me feel sad, like when something does not go right
You make me feel Happy, like a child receiving a present
You make me feel calm, like when flower beginning to bloom
You make me feel relaxed, like a bee collecting its pollen
You make me want to become a better person.

Changing My Voice

I am a voice
   yet to be heard
   yet to be spoken
I am a speaker
   yet to learn the language
   yet to hear the audience
I am the audience member
  yet to appreciate the voice
  yet to understand how to listen

What I AM

I am a secret yet to be discovered.
I am a lock with no combination.
I am keys without a car.
I am a password yet to be revealed.
I am a lie with no truth.
I am the truth         waiting to be told

What I See

I see mountains
I see trees
I see houses
I see cabins
I see animals
I see fields
I don't see politics
I don't see hatred
I don't see religion
I don't see illness
I don't see death
I don't see fraud
I view a land so precious I can hear peace
I view a land so precious I can smell friendship

I guess "It's Something"

‘Its nothing’ I often say this

But it cant be nothing if I stress over it    

Why should I care if I say its nothing  

The true answer is it isn’t nothing, because I do care  

I wish I could tell you everything I think

Is everything that happened true?

I am scared to shared everything

Knowing everything I could say, I am truly scared

What will you say, when you hear the many things I think

‘falling for you’ not those words, but when you say ‘I am here’ those are the words

You say you’ll miss me, and it only makes me want to stay

Staying would be great if you hadn’t said you were leaving too.

FOR MOTHERS DAY

Mom; it is one word,
but has one million definitions

Here are my top five:

Definition  #1: someone to cry to
Definition #2: someone who will always make me food
Definition #3: someone who is always there to hug
Definition #4: someone to show me how to express my feelings

Definition #5: someone who will love me no matter how many time i have to learn the same lesson.

<3<3<3 I LOVE YOU MOMMY!!!!!!!!!!! <3<3<3

Scabs

Scabs of time
Scabs of love
Scabs for life.

A scab represents
a time,
where you thought love wasn't coming your way
so you thought life should
be over.

You are my scab
on my wrist
on my hand
on my body
on my heart

I wonder, i hurt
all of these scabs
represent my weakness
when i thought
why?

I only wish I knew

I said goodbye,
when i really meant hello.
I said I wont be back,
when i really meant nice to see you.
I said you mean nothing to me,
when really i meant give me time.
I said i was done,
when i really meant i don't know.

I say i want you,
when i mean i want you.
I say help me,
when i mean help me.
I say i am sorry,
when i mean i am sorry.
I say i am hurt,
when i feel hurt.

I say I love you,
when i mean
I never want to say goodbye,
I never want to leave you,
You mean everything to me,
You complete me,
Stand with me, for as long as you love me.

I Let You Into My Dark World

 

My world was dark,
You smiled,
I was a secret,
You smiled again,
I told you things I never told her,
You stood by me,
When I told you about Himm
You told me you'd always be here for me,
And now you are one of the only people I truly know I can trust

So thank you

You may not know who you are,

But I do

And I love that you continuously stand by me

Even at my worst

You mean a lot to me.

From the deepest part of my heart,

Thank you for helping my through the tears and the laughs

 

That Moment

You are my escape

In a world full of hurt and sadness

When we smiled at each other

The world stopped

And no one could ruin this perfect moment

You are everything a person can be

But far away-

In a world of texting.

You'll always be in my hand, heart and soul

But in the real world-

You are not in walking distance.

Next time might be too late

I doubt you'll find another me

But I know you'll wait

Until we create, that moment;

Never be forgotten

As

That moment when time stopped

For You; Dear

The bond I have with you
extends so far
I saw you, you looked crazy
but then I met you, and knew you were crazy
you understand me,
get me
love me
trust me
respect me
even though its only been months
BUT this is not about me,
its about us.
I was asked to write about happier things
and you are one of the
HAPPIEST things that has happen to me.

The Truth

everyone wants to know
but no one wants to share
for fear of being judged
but the lies we say instead
get us into trouble
and sickness
i just admitted to
an emotion i feel
its scary, i know
but trust me
its better then
lying to yourself

We Can't.

The most complex word I know is

Relationship.

Not only does this word mean I can kiss who I want

It means I must live in fear that one day it will be over

There was one that I wish to mention now

This was no boyfriend, she and I were soul sisters

So I thought

She and I did everything together from laughing at jokes

To studying, from watching TV to facebook

6 years later.

The pain of laughing alone at a memory we share

The unsettling thought that brings me sadness

The idea that two people could be so close

But then wake up one morning and realize that

The entire friendship is gone

We no longer share giggles

We no longer have sleepovers

We no longer share secret

No more plans,

Waiting for her, no

In class giggles, no

Talking to her, no

Hugs from her, no

She is now the person I fear most.

Alone. Again.

It wasn't me,
I didn't.
I wouldn't
How could I have?
It was only one time
I never meant for it to go this far
But because it has
I question life.
I wonder everyday
For if I see her
I will fall.
Into the Dark
I will be alone,
AGAIN?

New

Will it be as if I never knew you?
Its not like we had a fight
But I am okay,
I am a new me
Free to be
Instead of waiting around
On my computer
I now read, write
And feel free from
The worrying
And suffering
you
caused
to me,
As for you
I wish you
A great 2012
As
You try to replace me
But we both know you can't

Hurt

I know how it feels
I know how it works
I wish I could say
I have never hurt
But there is only one thing to say
In my kind of hurt
But I can not say
For I am in pain
So much that air
Has hurt me
I wish I could know
I won't be hurt again
But silly me
I know. I will be
Its not like i will plan it
Sometimes its just their
Time, if i've learned anything
Its that
The more I HURT, from my losss
It means the more I LOVEd and careD

Think What Is Important

Its not your fault
that your gone now, but it did help me
to understand what values you gave to me
though not palpable
these lessons mean more to me
than any other present
i have recived.
never have I ever wanted
anything more than
the knowledge i have know
materialistic things
a camara, a laptop, and even a cellphone,
not important to me
nothing compares to the best gift
of Family, Friends
And people who care

Friendship

So, this so called 'friendship' 
Is over, and I don't care
Because I swear, you will never find
Anyone like me
And I hope one day you do read this
Because I am done
This is not fun, but it was
Your loss, your choice
All those years
Giggling, laughing, talking, walking
WASTED
I know who you are
But YOU do not