Strong

I was strong
Stronger then I had ever been
I had forgotten about it, I had learned. 
Or so I thought. 
But when it happened again
My wall broke and punched me where it hurt
I couldn't resist
I am sorry,
I thought I was better, but I guess I'm not 

Look at the LIGHTS

Great for some

Great for me

I am a person, I deserve what is best for me.

That is what is best 

Than I have no excuse!

I am able to adjust to new things well,

So stop worrying

What else

Nothing. Nothing thought of.

See you can't think of anything,

So why not choose what is best

Stop. Think. 

Just because you are comfortable,

Doesn't mean best

Spilling My Everything

You make me want to be a better person

It’s like you are telling me that I am great the way I am,

But I WANT to impress you and be better

The crazy part is; you haven’t said a word

That look in your eyes tells me so much, more than just emotion

Eye conversations between us, is our communication from afar

But then when we part I feel different. Not a good different.

It’s as if what happened, didn’t. And what I felt, I didn’t.

And that person I so badly wanted to be, vanished.

Everything. Disappeared.

I still think about you, but nothing attached

My thoughts of you are mostly my worries of teenage actions, being only teenage actions

The future has plans for me, and I hope to see you.

Without Wants

You make me feel safe, without a net

You make me feel comfortable, without a pillow

You make me feel beautiful, without words

You make me feel loved, without the love

You make me feel wanted, without the pressure

When you speak, your words mean hundreds of things

When you laugh, your laugh means that I can cause you happiness

When you looked me in the eyes, I knew that I did something right.

My Oath

I will make you laugh
   when you want a laugh
I will make you feel loved
   when you want love
I will make you happy
   when you want happy
I will make you shine
   when you want shine
I will make you joyous
   when you want joy
and
I will make you my reality.
and that is my OATH to you.

Bully VS Bullied

Bully.
Maybe you did, maybe you didn't
Now, seeing you in this light. I see it.
You are a bully.
You were my bully.
Bullied me into the friendship
Bullied me into the love I feel
Bullied me into believing you were true.
I now face a costly challenge
Whether to confront you
Or
Forget about you

Because of you, I will never be the same.
Usually friendly, but not me, because of you.
Last to be thought of as bullied.
Laughs get quieter and more silent.
You will never know the pain you caused me, and you can never undo it.

A Freak

You know what being called a freak by a friend is like?

No, you don’t. Because you have never been hurt like I have.

You have only seen suffering, never knowing what the cause truly is

I feel like you have drilled a hole, and will never be able to see how big it really is

You never understood me, did you?

Did you ever really care?

The look you give me

The feeling you gave me

The words you spoke to me

The memories we shared together

They have all changed

I guess the in the future

We will meet again

But until then, I will see you in our memories